On August 22, 2011 I had just gotten out of the pool where I had been swimming for about an hour and a half. I changed clothes and sat down on the couch to read for awhile and for some reason I felt very tired. I leaned back and began to notice a pain rising in my chest. It continued to grow as I sat there so I called for my wife to come and sit with me. After a few minutes it did not go away so after taking two aspirins we went to the hospital. The intensity of the pain caused me to go within and I focused on just being present with the pain.
I begin to wonder if this was my final call and if this would be how my life would end. I decided to embrace my transition if it was truly to be my time. I surrendered to the moment and waited to see what was to happen.
Finally we arrived at the nearby emergency room and my pain was intense. The nurses were kind and comforting and after checking me out they had an ambulance transport me to the heart center at the downtown hospital. They brought me into a room filled with medical equipment where the Dr could do his work. He decided to keep me awake during the procedure he was about to perform while the pain only grew in intensity. He told me not to worry and that he had performed these procedures many times before. He was going inside to clear out the artery that was blocked and causing the chest pain. It made me think about my heart and how it had served me so well throughout my life. I am sure the blockage was caused by poor eating habits especially when I was younger and now I was dealing with the results. The heart is a very precious organ that feeds and nourishes the whole body and mine was having a hard time doing it's job.
I said the Prayer of Protection by James Dillet Freeman, in my mind several times and once again surrendered to the process. I watched the large screen next to my body which showed where the Dr was working inside me. He was looking intently to find the blockage and clear it.
While on the table I started to have what I call a beyond the body experience where I was connected to the Higher Mind and begin having a sort of life review. A part of my awareness was free from ordinary consciousness and connecting with who I was, why I was here and a comforting sense that everything was going to be fine. I relived some memories I had forgotten and some personal issues just seemed to instantly resolve in my heart and mind. I began having mini visions about things I needed to do and how I would fulfill my purpose in this life.
Everything became crystal clear and I felt a part of me was awakening with new insight and a fresh perspective.
While on the table I started to have what I call a beyond the body experience where I was connected to the Higher Mind and begin having a sort of life review. A part of my awareness was free from ordinary consciousness and connecting with who I was, why I was here and a comforting sense that everything was going to be fine. I relived some memories I had forgotten and some personal issues just seemed to instantly resolve in my heart and mind. I began having mini visions about things I needed to do and how I would fulfill my purpose in this life.
Everything became crystal clear and I felt a part of me was awakening with new insight and a fresh perspective.
I also had a revelation about how this physical existence is not the whole story and how pliable and flexible reality really is. Somehow in that moment I knew my existence was very meaningful and held great value. There was an "I" that would continue on even after the body was released and it was now okay to die and also perfectly okay to live too. Life is about living and dieing in every instant because we constantly let go or die to the old patterns so we may embrace the present moments that are most important. I felt that this whole process of being on the "operating table" was finally God's opportunity to heal me in all the ways I really needed it. At the same time the physical me was experiencing the hospital room and all that was going on there too.
The nurse was not fully attending to what the Doctor needed from her and they were not communicating effectively. I could tell the Dr was not pleased with her as she was talking on the phone in another room to her boyfriend. At some point I cried out and they gave me medication to help relieve the pain. Even in the pain I felt a strong connection with Divine Grace and knew absolutely that all was well.
The nurse was not fully attending to what the Doctor needed from her and they were not communicating effectively. I could tell the Dr was not pleased with her as she was talking on the phone in another room to her boyfriend. At some point I cried out and they gave me medication to help relieve the pain. Even in the pain I felt a strong connection with Divine Grace and knew absolutely that all was well.
At some point the Doctor broke through the blockage and I immediately felt better. At the same time I felt renewed in my spirit and energized to live a more enlightened life. I also treat my body like the temple it is and give it the things it needs. Afterward everything seemed cleaner and brighter, smells were more pungent and my senses were heightened. Many people were praying for me and sending me good thoughts and wishes and I felt every bit of it with great appreciation. The energy in my body felt as though it had increased 10 fold.
Something happened to me that night and I feel different because of it. I now absolutely appreciate every breath I take and every day that I am alive in this world.
I hope this personal story may help others in some way.
In love and light,
James
Something happened to me that night and I feel different because of it. I now absolutely appreciate every breath I take and every day that I am alive in this world.
I hope this personal story may help others in some way.
In love and light,
James
